as precious to them as they are to us
Decay is the Way Dead Things Live
on Bruno Schulz, Jindřich Štyrský,
and other modernist masters of matter.
The fiction of Bruno Schulz is alive with dead things. His stories all take place in the narrow landscape of his childhood: the small, provincial town of Drohobycz in what was then the Austro-Hungarian Empire and is now western Ukraine, a few years after the start of the twentieth century. At the same time, they seem to occupy a separate cosmos, one whose physics, biology and even meteorology are distinct from our own. Schulz’s Drohobycz is a city of abnormal winds, intercalated seasons and illusory geography, in which time is entirely plastic, stretching out and contracting according to its own desires.
Here, the boundaries between people and things aren’t fixed. Human beings are susceptible to sudden, inexplicable transformations. They turn into animals — cockroaches, flies, crustaceans — and objects — a pile of ash, a primitive telegraph, a heap of rubbish, the rubber tube of an enema. A flock of multicolored birds flies from the family house in winter; in the fall, it returns blind and misshapen, the birds’ anatomy a nonsense of cardboard and carrion. The substance of reality seems paper-thin and prone to tearing. In attics, darkness degenerates and ferments. Unmade beds rise like dough. Colorless poppies sprout out of the weightless fabric of nightmares and hashish.
ended well. :)
I’m beginning to wonder what kind of man God has in store for me. There is so much left to the individual, that I doubt God has a ‘man’, but maybe a type for me, someone or some people that could make me happy. I want to be in love so bad, but really I don’t. I really dont. Time goes by so slowly, and I’m waiting. Stupid, eh. I want to move fast, live fast, talk fast, pray fast, drive fast…. I just have to wait until I can! Letting go of someone else is fine, really it’s ok. I just have to control my thoughts and put faith into the air.
I love you God. Even if I dont show it. You are the man in my life, besides the other men in my life. Lol!
Alright, remember to post shit is an urgent need of mine. HOLY YADS. I know things in my life are about to start opening up. I no longer want to sit on the sidelines. NO MORE!